the twisting [kaleidoscope] moves us all in turn.

Friday, June 07, 2013 Posted In , , , , Edit This
I'm growing up and I know this because I can chop off all my hair and not worry about how long it will take to grow back and because on one rare occasion I wasn't sure if you were asking me out or if you just wanted to chill and on top of that because if i was doing a different degree next year would be my third and final year and also because I can go get new holes stabbed into my body with canulas and not feel bad about not taking my Mom along and because I have a playlist on spotify of songs that remind me of my Bob and because I decided 'Can you feel the love tonight?' has to play at my wedding.

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Location:Saudi Arabia

if we never took that road...

Thursday, May 02, 2013 Posted In , , , , , , , , , , Edit This
I've been exploring lately.

A pair of us went to stables to ride and we explored the surrounding park and the surrounding beach. It was pleasant. And I got back on a horse after my fall last year.



I also decided to explore nearby places, so I went on foot to 2 of the small towns near Dundee, Invergowrie and Kingoodie. They're small and picturesque and god it's amazing how I get to enjoy solitude and just daydream and live in my own world. It's perfect. It was so peaceful, there was nobody all up in my face about anything.  I almost teared up with appreciation for being in my own head at one point. I think that lot might be feeling bad that I haven't gone with them, but I'm thrilled that I didn't go, quite honestly. I'm glad not to be in their company and I'm enjoying my peace.



I also managed to get a cat following me about because I started whistling.

I think when I grow up and have a car and stuff I want to be one of those people who just spur of the moment decides to go somewhere random, and then actually does go. Like spinning a globe and going where my finger lands....
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[embrace] the shadows on the surface

Tuesday, January 29, 2013 Edit This
"It's not about being the best, it's about being better than you were yesterday."

Resonates. More to come on my search for happiness and my discoveries along the way soon. 

I'll be b u l l e t p r o o f.

Sunday, January 27, 2013 Posted In , , , , , Edit This
I am feeling rather strong right now, both physically and mentally. I feel a direction to my life.

Climbed the Law hill today which was nice. Granted I am a slowpoke but hey I made it up there. And it was pretty!








I'm also learning to drive. And I'm not going to pretend I'm not a horribly nervous driver (who according to my instructor holds the steering wheel with a death grip- he actually asked if I did weight lifting, lol) it does give me a sense of empowerment. I feel like if I ever had to leave, I have a way to get further.

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Location: Dundee, United Kingdom

Save Tonight

Thursday, January 03, 2013 Posted In , , , , , , , Edit This
I'm back at that point where it's late on the night before the day I leave home. As usual I hate it. As usual my stomach feels funny and my mind wants to escape into some fictional world.

Ollie gave me a good night hug and asked me if I really had to go. Then she demanded my uni relocate here.

This is going to be one of the longest stints away...

I think I need people to anchor me to Dundee. But I don't think that's coming my way any time soon and I can't really see my Jeddah friends ever not being the ones I love most. It's just... they make the most sense. I would be ok with them raising my hypothetical children.

*sigh*
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