Maybe it's a cruel joke on me?

Sunday, November 22, 2015 Posted In , , Edit This
Oban was isolated and far away and I was on my own so much of the time, but it was ok. Almost reassuring. Peaceful.

Now there are so many people around suffocating me and it's lonelier than ever. I don't feel any warmth. It's so fucking cold and lonely and I wish I could evaporate. 

i'm a let down

Sunday, November 08, 2015 Posted In , Edit This

I want to peel off my skin.
I want to be someone else, someone better, someone good enough.
I want to start over.

I don't understand why it has to be like this, why I have to be this person that disgusts me?