I’ve always been black or white, but maybe it’s time for gray
Sunday, January 14, 2018 Edit ThisWent to mass with Charlie today. He’s becoming important. It’s a bit scary. This wasn’t really supposed to happen again so soon.
I still feel like something is missing. Actually said this to Ben the other day. I suppose I always will, is what I told him. I meant it more in terms of travel and wanderlust but I tbh I think a lot of my unsettledness is religion related anyway. Sometimes I wonder if what’s missing is God.
Today at their church the priest said something to the effect of “what we are all looking for is happiness, and to feel affection from others” and I don’t know it resonated. I cried actually. Poor Charlie.
Maybe I should start doing the things I can again. There’s a lot I’m not ready/unwilling/unable to commit to, but maybe I can do some of it. Maybe it will give me some purpose and meaning. Maybe it will make my mother happy and satisfied and less worried. I don’t know...